Words for U..

How did u guys feel,when u thinkin of him/her,u feel yor heart juz being stab by knives instead of feeling happy?Sometimes I see pair of couples playin ‘ai mei’ in class,I feel happy for them,but in other hand,sigh,dun even wanna think bout it..Realli duno how to communicate wif her,duno wanna start from where,and not hoping to end the conversation 4ever..Juz tat day me n frens talk bout jealous,wah so many ppl giv comment bout it,so do i..Actualli there’s ntg to do if u r jealous with someone,u juz cant stop ones to get closer wif yor love ones rite?Sigh,actually jealous oso good de,at least u know tat u care bout her..im jealous ,not becoz they so close wif her,is juz I feel tat im not good enough to compete wif them…y im always the failure 1?can anyone share yor jealous wif me?But I didn’t blame for it,first of all,there’s ntg to blame of,in the other hand,I didn’t hav the authority to stop them..Juz b like normal,tats’s all I wan..Maybe she’s change,tougher and etc..y im still standing on the startin line?i feel like cant catch up wif her..Can luv be confused?then y u feel so?maybe yor heart edi treat me as fren,juz u touched by words onli..sometimes ,I hear from piew bout u,im shocked when he ask did I jealous bout him and u,SURELY DIDN’T..y all always wanna gratz me?y all wanna me to take action,since the girl dun wan me to do so..sigh,same question again,y u so close to them but not me?maybe I should ask myself too..Im not findin u,doesn’t mean I already forget u,coz my heart still thinking of u;I didn’t chat wif u,doesn’t mean I didn’t hav the courage to talk wif u,it juz I duno wanna start from where;I didn’t take action on u,doesn’t mean I not luving u anymore,somehow u are confusing,maybe times is important for u ;when u’re hurt,though I see it but I didn’t say any word tat can make u feel better,doesn’t mean tat im not care bout u,in my heart,there’s always an existence of U…Although fate is control in the hand of god,we can still fight for it,coz fate oso control in both of our hands,right?68 , 75 201314…

A LoneLy Hop3 of Myself

Yesterday maple till 3am,feel tired,till almost forget wanna to wake up go for school..When reach,after I’ve being ‘taken’ by them,there the games are started..but,onli the first game will be memorable for me..Hey,u know ma?although there’s oso a distance between u and me when passin the balloon without water in it,I feel tat im suddenly very close to u...Even though is juz an accidently hug,but at least I feel im sooooooo close to u,close than anything in tis world,juz like we are as one..Sob sob,it juz a game though,rite?FrenZ 4eVeR,I think tats wat we juz gonna be..U so worried bout him,how should I feel guys?Maybe im misunderstood bout it,I really hope so..Sometimes,I really not hope to know anything from u..I’m scare,coz im not as competitive as others..I’m willing to love u,as deep as I willing too,but itz oso makes me hate myself, hating myself for being so selfish becoz of U..Selfish coz willing to own u by my own..Every nite,I oso hope to hear from u,no matter u on9,or juz a simple sms, Im feeling enough edi..We cant eager too much in love,becoz the more we want,the more we’ll lose becoz of it…Sigh..Sometimes I really wanna do something to make u pay attention on me,attract on me,juz like last time form 1 Biondi does to u,u still remember him?But,there’s ntg important for me to do like tis..Someone being caring should be happy by it,but for us,we juz can watch our loves one caring others..Realli sob sob,coz there’s no one for me to talk wif..sister’s all now edi being couple,frenz wont pay attention bout my talk,there’s impossible for me to told my mom rite?wat I was,it juz a person tat’ll onli drop my tears in middle of nite,and I cry juz becoz of a word Love,dun force yourself to stop crying when u need to cry.. there’s a onli things I forever cant done for u,is tat I failed to let u believe tat,love is juz around us 2…

A Nev3r Ending StoRy

Y would I love her?Can anyone tell me why?Then,y would u all love her/him?Izzit tat it hard to be explain,or it juz cant be explained?I know u feeling not happy,but I didn’t meant too..I juz cant ask to much for it,for though I already lose the opportunities to choose..For now I’m juz waitin to be chose,so tat I can become the chosen one in yor heart..But I know,there’s none of a place in yor heart,a place where there’ll be a acceptance of me,where u’ll knew me truly…Actualli I didn’t really wanna know tat whether u’ll be touched by my words,or u cry becoz of me,I rather u say tat u didn’t hav any respon or feeling on me edi..Maybe I’ve already ‘enjoy’ the like of sadness..There’s no need a decision from u,even though u’ll love me for the last time,or u’ll never love me anymore,I juz dun wanna care bout it edi..Coz my dream is to wish u both,and I didn’t think of being tgt again..Eh,dun let the confuse make u suffer..Isnt tat love someone shouldn’t suffer ?There’ll be a day,where I will grap yor hand in a grassy field,where bird will sang for us,and u shall heard from me the word ‘I Love U’..Its a rainy day again,whose tears was tat?and for who tat tears were poured down from the sky?..Hey,maybe there’s no more chance for me,maybe u juz touched by me,but there’s no love between u and me..If it’s really true,then forget the confuse,there’s always a chance for us,maybe not now,maybe its after the reincarnation of us two…Who oso know,tat love can make someone become selfish,everyone oso eager to get together wif his/her loves one,so do i…did u feel the same too?There’s many story happen in tis world,some story havnt told but edi end,some story were told by someone till the half,but it’s stop for some reason,some story were finished,but even the story teller oso didn’t know wat the meaning of the story..Izzit true tat I shake hand wif u is happier than grap your hand ?I’ve cried, it opens the lungs,washes the countenance,exercises the eyes and soften down the temper, I juz cry away..It’s been late edi,izzit u still tryin to wake up from yor confusion?Juz dun force yourself,actually let it go oso not a bad idea at all..Maybe u’ll feel better after all..Maybe we can juz love a person once but nor twice,if tat’s true,no matter how confuse u are,the fact is still the same..I always keep a promise for myself,tat Love can Take 2,if both of them willing too,but unfortunately,reality is very cruel to us both..U’ll always my angel in my heart,though tat incident happen,u still is a fallen angel in my heart,tat rescue me from loneliness and bring me happiness...Unfortunately Angel cant fall in love wif human,it’s a story of us two,a story tat’s never hav an ending at all,tat’s live inside both of our heart…

My BeloV3D DaD

18 June 2006,it’s a meaningful day for everyone,as we can thx our honourable father in tis forgiving day..Anyone tat’ve done wrong may get yor father’s forgivness..There’s no argument in tis special day,but for me,there also no celebration in tis day…Dad,do u still remember ma?Tat night,I juz went back after I ‘mamak’ wif frens..suddenly when I go home,u seems to be angry,I oso duno wat reason..i still remember ,tat u kicked me..and chase me go out from house and lock the door…u know ma?i wasn’t feel pain juz becoz u kicked me,im hurt,becoz u treat me like tat…Tat time I juz cry at all,I see grandma stopping u from menghalau go out from house,I see her cry,and mom oso…I juz ask myself,did I do wrong?Then I call my mom,she cryin say,tat I always like go in and go out from house freely,without asking any permission…Maybe im too free,as the other kids may at home study or sleep,but im still goin out late wif my fren…Dad,actually I know u didn’t meant it,I know u get pressure in yor work,im not blaming u tat u angry me juz becoz too expressed yourself..From tat incident,u and me didn’t talk at home..maybe whole week we didn’t spoke to each other,except I need any help,then I onli willing to talk wif u,but oso juz a few seconds..I wonder y u didn’t like to see world cup?as I know,watching ball wif father may make us closer to each other..Y u didn’t willin to chat wif me,although juz a simple chat I oso feel happy..Maybe u tot im scared of u?I know u care bout me,whenever I wanna go out wif frens..sometimes u’ll ask me whether enough money to spend or not,even I say enough(but actually I need more),u’ll also giv me some..Haha,I feel happy of it,and I keep smiling while on the way of the road..Hey dad,I always respect u,u still remember one time,tat we bring our puppies go out for a walk..I still remember tat,juz like the old yesterday..Puppies running freely,we both chat happily,chasing puppies,smilling to each other,God,I miss the moment..Eh dad,though I duno how to cook for u,duno how to start a conversation wif u,duno make u proud of yourself for being my dad,wat I know is juz make u angry and stress everyday,I juz didn’t help at all,juz keep giving u trouble..Dad,SRY…and also Happy Father’s Day to u,dad..Love U always…

Road NOT Tak3n..

Haha,izzit sound familiar?Coz I steal it’s idea from the English literature..Life always full of making choices and decisions.When we came to a road which lead 2 ways(can be people,or something etc.),which way shall we choose ?There’s no turning back after u’ll make yor first step in it…We’ll always ask ourself,which shall we choose,or perhaps can say as will we being choose by others?…It’s always not easy for us to make a choice,as it will make a big change in our life,same as being as a chosen one too…Finally,I know my heart is bleeding.i’ve lost tis feel since the broke-up wif her..Izzit happy coz I know I still love her,or shall it be sad,coz im hurt becoz of her?It’s always not too late to turn back as the chances are still waitin for us,isn’t it? There’s always a hope if we willing to..although sometimes we cant fullfill our dream(or hope),but at least we try to dream of it.IF you can dream,and not make dreams yor master;If you can think,and not make thoughts your aim…hey,I really really miss her,look upon the window,it’s a rainy day again,I feel like I wanna 2 cry again,I duno where are u now,I hope to know it…there’s many I wanna to tell u,but I duno where to start,where shall I start anyway?do u same wif me ma?still thinking of me?or him?if I’ve lost u one more time again,where I’ve been,where I’ve went,whether did I excist,there’s no meaning edi..i know all of tis already to late for me to tell u,but I oso wish to tell u all bout it…where r u now?izzit far away from me?or juz somewhere near me,it’s juz I duno onli?where can we met again huh?maybe we shouldn’t met each other again,juz continue wif yor life now…there’s no need to look back to the past rite”?izzit the right choice we keep look forward to the future instead of looking to the past?but I hope there’ll always a second chance for us all,for us tat did wrong,for us tat missed something important,for us tat didn’t appreciate when she’s/she’s beside us..izzzzit real tat Love can Take 2 ma?or it juz a story tale,where it doesn’t excist in tis realitic word of ours?Ei,dun force yourself make any decision,I didn’t need any answer of yor’s..further more I didn’t ask for it oso..i not hoppin to see u suffer between us 3..U know ma?i really didn’t need any answer of yors,none of the answers I need from u..The most happy things in my life,is I found out tat I in love wif u..my soul become meaningful,and tis happiness,cant buy from anywhere,from anyone,and it can be found through anywhere,anytime,by anyone…There’s always be a possible,tat rain and sky can fall in love to each other..Maybe there’ll be a day for us too..Even though the galaxy may disappear in a single second,but I hope the single second in yor mind,still got the hug between u and me..and it’s the warmest thing I’ve ever done to u…where I can feel yor temperature,feel yor heart’s beat,and the most important is,we r AS ONE…

Sh3's My OnLy OnE

Haha,who's she?I wont gonna tell u all...but i bet u all know her ^^.I juz wanna tell her,at the moment she say break up wif me and hav a new bf tat is my pal since im small,my world totally blank.Juz like the apocalypse..I always blame of myself wat did i do when im together wif her,till now some of my fren still blamming y i didnt treat her properly?The onli answer i giv them is i childish,but actualli i reallli not sure y i didnt treat her well when she's beside wif me..Im happy,i've been her another part of life in the past,I like her smile,juz like the first time i saw her..The feel itz realli great,i accidently knew her,although she's same class wif me..I still remember the first time i confessed wif her,n im glad we get our frens greetings..Somehow the broke-up make me very frustrated and unable to concentrate in anything..and finally this incident make me cry in front of my mom for the first time since primary,haha,accidently i oso make my mom cry too...The moment was totally great,it's full of love from my mom,without her,i cant walk out from it..Maybe im now still confused,confuse tat izzit everything come too fast?I realli didnt imagine tat he will break up wif her,at the moment i received the news,there's no happy and sad on me.There's ntg to happy for,coz she still luving her very much...There's ntg to sad for,coz i oso hopping to forget her..Maybe u can bluff everyone in the world,but u juz cant bluff yorself,and the 1 tat care for u.Sometimes i realli think,If he and her didnt broke up,realli,there's no excuse tat i still got chance..Coz i didnt believe tat Love Can Take 2 anymore,juz becoz of her...I know she still luvin him,and maybe i,myself juz cant accept the reality tat she still luving him,is it better i forget her?I always hope to giv up,giv up not loving her anymore..I know she's tough,coz she say it mar,haha..She reali become tough since tat incident,and tat's wat she told me..She's not the one tat giv me hope,or perhaps she is,and is me tat keep myself on luving her..I juz wanna tell her,tat i was always care for her..''If u love a person,u muz let him/her to be free,free on finding his/her own happiness'',everytime i hear tis from frenz,but realli,can u do it?Maybe someone can,for me,i alreadi do half of it..For others,maybe she's not special,not as pretty as Miss World,not as Sexy as Jolin,but for me,i juz love her,love everything of her..If u love someone can be explain,tat's not love,right?Coz love is an expression from heart,cant be described,cant be told by someone else..Only can be feel by each other..Actualli i oso neeed U,very very much,coz u the onli girl i Love,girls like nga ying ar,it's juz somekind of feel to cover my love on U,it's juz bluffin myself...I maybe duno write a touched story to U,i maybe duno how to say jokes,i maybe duno how to expressed myself to U,i maybe duno how to take care of u(coz i oso dunno take k of myself,waitin for her to take k of me ^^),i maybe duno how to 'tam' u go sleep,i maybe duno how to apologize myself to u when im done wrong,i maybe stubborn,i maybe.....etc,but at least i know tat I Love U.Maybe tat's not enough for u,but for me,i've done my best..It's not the matter of havin the opportunities to get together again or to prove tat Love can Take 2,but tat's wat in my heart,and i wanna tell u all bout tis..I realli Need U,more than anyone in the world,I realli Care bout U,juz like yor parents does,I realli Miss on U,as every nite be4 i sleep i'll thinkin of U,not juz everynite,anytime,anywhere u'll appear in my mind..U know ma?tat day i realli wanna help u take yor file,then simple carry yor hand,but duno y i didnt..Coz if i ask for,u sure dun wan,then u'll say u like hug yor file,so it make u safe,rite?Then better if i dun ask?I feel very scared,scare of taking action on u..duno y i cant think of any topic to talk wif u,if juz chat like normal,i juz feel like something wrong bout us..i realli duno wat to do..Maybe pest is right,Love will never take 2 if juz one of the person is willing for..Tis hope almost disappear from the deep in my heart,since i hear u and him so sweet..Maybe one more step i'll can forget U,maybe i didnt forget U at all,i oso not realli know bout it..I hope to ask..if he realli come back now,wat u'll do?But i didnt ask in front her,coz i juz not wanna know de answer..duno y,i become a bit coward in gettin the answer i wan..Maybe im juz scare,scare of..(i duno^^).Sometimes i juz realli hope to spend my time wif her,juz like after the talent competition,suppose they wanna go e-box,but duno y i refused it..when i go home..i feeling wanna cry,maybe is my wrong,my wrong in missing my oppurtunities..But im glad,coz he still there,its a bit weird,and i not hoppin i jealos of it,so i rather spend my times alone..I realli hope to say i miss u,but i didnt,coz i know u'll tell me not to misunderstood...Whenever she chat wif me at nite,mostly i cant sleep,maybe im happy or disappointed..but if she didnt find me,sometime i cant sleep at all,coz..coz i Miss her alot..I miss her when i didnt see her in a day,i miss her whenever i do wat,i miss her be4 im sleep,i miss her when i still dota-ing,almost miss her everyday in every single second,i juz duno y....If she giv me a kiss,then i rather wan her,not juz her kiss,haha...tat's all for her..Sarang Haeyo,tat's wat i wanna tell her,hope she know bout it..

Fri3nDs..

Hey all,it's me.wingsen,u know ma,i knew u since form 5,we play games together,chat together,without u,my world is juz black and grey.My dear sis,xinli,although sometime u a bit naughty,but for me..u is very important,u heard my sadness..and u willing to share wif me yor feelings,we are the best family members,dont we?Kok fai ar,y u so chicken,u like her since form 1,and i know u well...u very kind,u realli is my pal..Jeng hui ar,sometime i oso jealos bout u de ar,maybe becoz of her last time,i knew many bout u...haha,u always tat cool and funny,cheer up yoyoz ^^.Choon Mun ar,u so hip hop,i like yor style..Thx for sharing yor feels to me..Toong Piew ar,im happy tat u same 'kampung' wif me,next time treat u eat wan tan mee at Bentong ok?.Kai Hsien ar,knew u since primary,hope we'll see each other in Confucian 5 years later.Shawn,Menghon.though u 2 sometimes play fool on me,but im gratefull tat u 2 treat me so good,we'll have many valuable times together.Kok loon and Tengjian,u 2 always tat kind,but sometime KuKu Teng is a bit pest for me..Dominic,Weiping,Yenhan,got time we'll blue server together ok?nice to meet u 3..especially wei ping ^^..WingSoon and Zhan Xiong,soon ar..dun always think revenge la...sometime ppl make a fool on u,not realli u need make a fool on him oso, but u oso a nice guy,tat's y we always share feelings to each other,and bear ar..dun always stand in a place..love a person must be brave a bit,later u miss it,u cant find it anymore edi,Love no Take 2..tat's wat i learn..Julian,christine realli not bad..hope u'll meet her again..Tzu Peng,eh u know ma,u r my dream girl..haha...i like see yor smile...YeFei ar,for me u realli a good girl,not me oso,others oso,and u pretty also.SunSun,dun so pest ler ^^..Wan Choi,eh,thx for always invite us go see movie and redbox..wish u happy wif yor bf..Karmun ar,u know mar,many of us very like bout u leh,u so kiddy for me,small sister ^^..Goon Wee ar,my sis,dun always 'ai mei' wif yen han ler ^^..u'll always my sis..im happy to share wif u..Si Ji and Si Qu,though not everyday chat wif u,but i know u 2 very good girls.sure very tiring fightin each other...Cheer up..Xiao Fong and Mei Hwa...u 2 very helpful to me,coz i always borrow thing from u 2,hehe.Elizabeth,remember invite me to yor wedding wif dom wor..Andy ar,remember ask yor bro to teach me how to hack ^^..Yip,although u sometime is a bit tempered,but i hope u'll change,realli as a fren i tell u tis,u always my good partner.Yu Ken,i knew u since small,we love same girl be4,haha,not very funny,but im happy i knew u..there's no Y for me y i happy to knoew u.YanKei,eh,realli la,u prettier edi...Soo Yin,y u always so crazy wif me, i like leh..haha..Mun Yee,eh,wan me donate for guild logo or not =).Next time i go back oug we go steven corner Ok?Wen Hao,i know sometimes i oso will talk bad bout u,im sry,if im u,i realli cant manage to stand all tis.Yoke Fen and Sook Mei,wei ar,dun always maple la,lets go see movie more good ^^.Chun Lim,i knew u since form 1 bendahara,dun b sad,there's no take 2 for u edi,i know it,coz she's my sis..let time recovered u..Wei Yang,actualli u not bad..but sometime a bit 'sui',very like to touch yor stomach..Thin Hao,eh,treat my sis good good Ok?U are a good guy though..Timothy,u are the onli indian i knew in tis sch,frens forever..Nga Ying,u know mar?yor look very nice for me,although u a bit weird,maybe it juz u a bit 'pendiam' for us...nice to meet u...Chai Fong,sit behind me since primary 6,haha,u didnt change at all..Pik Mei,u realli change alot,u prettier and cute edi..Like U,haha...Yong Yean,Desmond Kong,Kah Kit,Miao Miao,Wee Lin,eh when wan ponteng go mamak then dota again?Yen Shen,thx for yor ride,Bendahara Rox..Chee Leong,dun sad ler,still got chance de.Honseng,my pal,hey wish u and yor gf happy always..sent my greetings to yor parents.74 and 76,Evonne and WaiLing,haha if not tat nite,i wont be knew u 2 so deeply,so sweet tat nite,^^.Xin Ru,haha,thx for everything u prepared for me,i know im lazy,hehe...
Tat's all in my fren list for tis sch,if i forget one of u all,pls scold me when sch,i'll add again ^^..FreNzZz 4Ev3R..

Parents

Mon,dad..sry for my disobedience for u two..Actualli in nite i got think bout u 2..how to become a perfect son in heart..but..i juz dream bout it,but didnt take action on it...maybe im still not grown up..sometimes i play joke when u all are taking serious bout it...Mom,u still remember got one nite i tell u bout my heart then we cry together?tat time i realli thought tat u is the most generous person in the whole world..onli u will giv me love when i need it...dad,i know u somehow cool in the outside,and i know u dun wan take action on my wrong,juz becoz im big edi and u dun wanna to lose my face..dad i know it...i can feel it when u realli care bout me..i know im always spend my time on frens..on games,and i juz forget bout u two..even though u 2 birthday,im juz act duno...actualli i realli hope to celebrate wif u 2...especially when father's day and mother's day...i wish to treat u two something..i know,for u 2,if i score well..tat's the best present for u,but unfortunately,yor son,me,cant do tat..im juz a little bit close to a failure,i think i cant do it for u 2...Sry,tat's onli i can say...and,i Love u two..more than anyone..Hope u two know bout tis....