UnSatisFieD..

August 9,a day where everyone waiting for it,waiting to celebrate wif our beloved ketua,Ng 'Yen Yen'..So,we juz planned it for yesterday onli,though is juz simple,but for him,he's realli touched bout it,we can see so,we know it..So we go secret order blueberry cake(i think so,4get edi=.=) after we sokong for 3 times,juz like parlimen meluluskan undang-undang,wakaka...So we gather below pizza,waiting all of us arrive,lighten up the candle,rushing up and giv him a suprise..Ahaha,after his wishes,woot,we all cheer up "kiss kiss kiss...",wah,realli wor,sis,im proud of u leh ^^..Sigh,but i realized,tat a road wif 3 person walking on it,realli very hard..one of three sure will been dump a side,then y 3 of them nid suffer?Maybe u juz think nvm,or juz think ntg,but hav u think it be4 ma?Y u can take serious wif all things,but juz cant think for u n me?I know u got,maybe not too deep,maybe u scare u'll been hurt again..If tats wat u think,then i think frenz will be better ba..Sigh,u didnt even feel confident to me,how u wanna feel safe?Sigh,not onli u been hurt be4,so do i,and all of us who has failed..But izzit havin failure once,then u'll lose confident to everyone,besides him?How i wanna say bout tis?Maybe i juz think too deep in it,maybe i should try to relax,y a person like me,always wanna a simple lifestyle,will do such deep things tat i cant afford to?I know u always havnt 4get him,maybe i juz misunderstood u,but i know u take a very big step for me,maybe u didnt do anything for me,or w/e,but i can see,u always hope to hav a happy life and relation wif him,others too...In yor heart,there's always frens around u,u'll never feel lonely..Maybe u will,when u thinking me n him,it juz maybe..I know u always peek on me,or maybe u didnt,but i'll always do tat on u,do u know ma?I realli not hopping to do tis,coz i realli not willing to see or hear it..Do u know yor different between others is wat mar?U juz too care yor frenz..maybe its gud for u ,to anyone tat close to u,and him so..Maybe u and him has a promise,where u both will never leave each others into lonely..I know i'll bit jealous of it,as everyone will do if they having same situation wif me,such as cl,jh,cm,and those who juz can love,but cant be loved by others..Maybe i'll juz hav to wait till tat day,and not hopping tat day come sooner for me,as it will bring us to a break-up one day..Or maybe we shouldnt wait for tat day to come..Y substacles always came to us both?How cant we juz as sweet as others couple?I realli care bout yor 'care' to yor frens,u juz too care bout them,i felt im juz a sub for u..Wont u juz b like other gals,care more bout yor couple than yor frens?Maybe not exactly dun care yor frens,but juz dun dump me a side,i juz feel very lonely lor,juz like when u got frens,there's no nid for me to u..Oh ya,we r not couple though,y should i say so?stupid me...silly me..selfish me..Im not wanted u to follow me all the times,not wanted u to spend all yor time juz wif me,not wanted u stay away from them,but at least,let me feel,tat wat ever u done,(no all the things u done la),at least yor heart still got me..I know,it's been a last year for u and frens,u wanna to spend more wif them,especially him,so do i..U know ma?when i see u and him,i can see u totally pay yor 'attention' on him..Sigh,he realli tat important mar?wat ever u done,juz like standing,chatting,sitting,he'll juz staying close to u,never leave beyond yor eyesight,or u trying to stay close to him ler?Can plz dun misunderstood my meaning ma?im not willing to control yor,neither taking away yor freedom nor forcing u..Maybe im the one tat too 'care' bout u..U know ma?i realli wanna to take things for u,i dun wan u to be tired..u willing to giv at first,but u take it back at last,i duno y,i never say no,coz i know,it's yors,not mine..juz like love..U the one tat giv me yor heart,but at last u the one tat taken it away,u know how hurt is tat mar?Maybe u wont know..ya,u wont..I realli wanna ask,did i touched u be4 mar?(not realli use hand touch la,i mean make u touched)How bout now?Someone tells me today,i think quite a long time,maybe i didnt did a thing tat realli make u touched be4,never..It's too early for us both to think bout tis,promises such as 4ever luv u or etc i juz cant giv u easily,coz i hope every promises tat i gave u ,i'll hav chance to prove it to u..When the day realli come to us,i hope both of us are prepared..

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